It has been
a month since school started and I am still as motivated as I was in the first day of
school. I am so surprised with my own determination and motivation. Things were
not the same last year. I still remember that I started ranting and complaining
after 2 weeks of school. I was drained. But this year, things are different,
really different and I hope this sustains until the end of the year.
What is so different here? Less busy schedule? It doesn’t look like that. Indeed, I am
working part-time as well. So there is no such thing that I am freer this term.
Less demanding courses? Definitely not. Things are accelerating really fast in
terms of course contents. Then what? That’s what I always ask myself.
I have been
brought up in a family, where I was always taught that even when the world is
ending, there is definitely something good to it. In other words, look at the
bright side and things will definitely get better. My brother and sis-in-law in
Malaysia have always been my role models and their optimism shaped me the way I
am now. How would this make my fourth year better than last year? It definitely
plays a role, but it is not the main reason.
It all
started with a random biking adventure with a friend, who is beautiful in and out. I was very adamant to bike on a route where there is no street lights at
night when our bikes don’t have lights either. When the last bit of light
from the sun was slowly fading away, I realized that it was such a dumb
decision that I made. I felt so bad for forcing my friend to follow me as well
and making him to bike in the dark, hoping that we will not hit anyone on our
way. Well, I decided based on the fact that it was a full moon that night and
supposed to be bright enough for us to bike. Clearly, I have not biked in a
full moon night before to know that the light from moon isn't sufficient to light
the entire route when there are trees blocking the pathway of the light.
And this
became one of those random decisions that I will not regret in a way. So, we
passed by one of my favourite spots near UBC and decided to take a break.
What a beautiful sight! We sat on the rocks looking at the skyline of downtown, while the sound of waves are slowly breaking the silence of the
night. Oh man, it is definitely one of the nights in my undergraduate years
that is worth remembering. We chatted
for little over an hour. My friend shared his experience in graduate school,
his motivation to keep going and what makes a graduate school different experience
that undergraduate years. Some of the things that I still remember are how you
have to love the process of progressing and getting end results, but not the
end results alone. There would be a period of time, where you will be questioning your decision and
how you are making a change in the society, or at least how significant is your
contribute to the society and how you tackle those questions. He also mentioned about his ambitions.
For some
reasons, listening to people sharing their experience and thoughts on life
inspires me. His ambitions reminded me of mine and this reminder was the spark
of the determination and motivation I have now. How did all this happen? I am
not sure, but definitely the chat was inspiring. Reminded me of my chats with
my brothers. Probably it is meant to happen! J So that is the story of me getting
my motivation to rock fourth year! It has been a great experience so far! J
P/s: I was
a runner and I was trained to end a race with barely any energy left because you
have some energy left that means you could have tried harder, but you didn’t. I don’t
want to end my fourth year saying that it would have been better if I tried
harder.